maybe this dissertation thing is no longer about the topic. maybe this finishing the dissertation thing is about me caring enough about myself to follow through. just like i care enough about myself to work out. i take that time because i know it's important. maybe i need to reformulate the question.
maybe i really don't have to care anymore about the topic. maybe i don't even really have to care about how good it is ultimately.
maybe the larger question is whether or not i care about myself.
[the original question was going to be whether or not the little engine that could is a baldfaced liar.]