on the last night at mama's house, with the heater running constantly because of the frigid weather and the holidays officially over, it felt deeply like the end to something.
i didn't understand it then and i don't understand it now. it just felt like things were changing significantly, and i'm still not sure how that is. nothing really is any different. i am working at the same places, though i will be finishing the diss. this semester. it really isn't any different.
but it feels like it is.
it was a bit of a fleeting feeling, though very strong. i've learned to listen to those feelings, so i'm waiting for what is coming.
i have no idea what it is.