yeah, so remember how i said that i was trying to wait patiently and be all logical?
i'm just going to straight out admit, right here and now on the internet, that i suck at it.
instead of being moderate about it, i have turned it into a bit of a fixation. so. today? i'm not going to do that. i think i will go for a walk. it's beautiful weather. i think i will go to the grocery store. ooh. maybe i'll walk to the grocery store. yeah, probably not. my poor car desperately needs gas, so i think i will do that. i think i will finally finish my thank you notes and send them off. i think i will make the bed and do the dishes and maybe watch a christmas movie, because for some reason it feels like that would be a good thing to do and miracle on 34th street is calling my name.
i will say, however, that musicboy is excellent at being logical and at reigning me in from the crazy fixation. i want him to be proud of me, so i'm going to suck it up.
and maybe make chocolate chip cookies. i made banana chocolate chip muffins/bread last night, because i had some bananas that were turning nasty and because i thought they'd taste good, but i'm not so sure that's what i want. i've wanted chocolate chip cookies, however, for like 9 days straight. maybe i'll just buy them instead?
anyway. this is my admission that a) i am not as good as i'd like to be and b) at least i'm still trying.
happy friday, all.